Tuesday, 11 August 2015

New blog

Ive transfered to bluegrayeyes.wordpress.com
It should be easier for ppl to follow and find me.
Meet you there. Xo

Monday, 10 August 2015

Animal Mums Book Idea

Today has been a nice day because brooklyn has been good all day. Last night i visualised a protective bubble around each of us. I was hoping this would protect her from my anger and me from her neediness. It seems to have worked.

On the weekend we saw the movie inside out. It was awesome. They had a lovely short before it called lava. It was about two volcanoes who fell in love but one was under the ocean waiting to rise someday, while she listened to the boy volcano sing up above, about waiting for love. It was so sweet. The main movie was about emotion people inside a girls head. She also had personality islands like hockey, friendship, family, honesty, goofball, imagination, etc.

The emotions were anger, joy, sadness, fear and disgust. They helped the girl create memory balls and when joy and sadness were lost, shes left with only 3 emotions which kind of makes her act like a moody teenager i guess. Then when all her islands crumble and all the emotions are turned off, she feels nothing, which is what i imagine depression to be.

If we were emotions, simon would be anger, cloe would be fear, id be sadness, willow would be joy, im not sure about sam and brooklyn, maybe sadness and joy/anger. Brooklyns islands would be rainbow unicorn island, disney princess island, family island, big ideas island. Simons would be motorbike island, metal music island, fantasy girls island and beer island. Mine would be nature island, family island, love island, song island, laughter island.

I also thought of a cool new idea for a book. A book about being a parent, from animals perspectives but thinking like we do. Sloth mum, elephant mum, tiger mum, dolphin mum, etc. So like the sloth mum doesnt care what the others think. Tiger mums competitive and looking down on the other mums. Elephant mum is told shes too soft. So like they all live together and chat and stress about parenting etc. just like theyre like us but acting like animals too.

Sunday, 9 August 2015

Dreaming of Him (wtf?!)

To dream about your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend or ex-husband/wife, that you and your ex are kissing/fighting or that you and your ex got back together again suggests that something or someone in your current life is bringing out similar feelings you felt during that relationship with your ex. The dream may be a way of alerting you to similar behavioral patterns in your current relationship. What you learn from that previous relationship may need to be applied to the present one so that you do no repeat the same mistakes. 

In particular, to see your ex-husband/wife in your dream indicates that you are currently finding yourself in a situation that you do not want to be in. It suggests that you are experiencing a similar relationship or situation which makes you feel unhappy and uncomfortable. Alternatively, dreaming that you are together with your ex-husband/wife implies that you are subconsciously repeating the same old patterns from that relationship to your current relationship. You are making the same mistakes and reacting the same way.

To dream about environmental issues represent the important role you play in the overall big picture. Do not underestimate yourself and your abilities.  Alternatively, it signifies a sense of powerlessness. You are feeling overwhelmed by things that are out of your control.

Saturday, 8 August 2015

Climate Change

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Today like alot of days, im feeling depressed, stressed, overwhelmed, confused, lost, alone, frustrated, etc. I feel kind of trapped. I love my family but they all demand so much from me, along with all the pointless daily shit like cleaning, bills, centrelink, worries like health, kids, getting fat, etc etc the list just goes on and on. Im letting my family down, myself and the earth. I just feel like im majorly failing at being a human.

Im taking brooklyn to the movies for the first time ever today. So hopefully that will help me forget my problems for a while. I feel pathetic coz i dont really have a reason to be unhappy besides total and utter overwhelm. My whole family can sense that im unhappy today. Theyre all trying to cheer me up. Im not suicidal but i am sick of being here and being me. Its all too hard and i just want to go back to where i came from.

I just want to be alone and live in nature in peace, without social expectations, judgement, toys to clean up, without kids screaming at me, without tv, internet, phones, competing, acheiving, without feeling like a failure who is drowning. If it was just me, then maybe i could but simons not interested and i still have kids to look after. Some days i dream of what it would have been like to be a native american indian.

I honestly dont know what to do anymore. Ive tried everything to change things. I have no energy left for anything these days. I just feel like giving up but i have mouths to feed and bums to change, so i cant even stop to rest. I need a holiday but my kids cant seem to survive without me, as proved by my last holiday attempt. I dont even know what i want anymore but i know its not this way of living. I feel like im slowly dying a bit more each day.

Friday, 7 August 2015

Healing and Communicating

Imagine inside a cell in your heart. 
See a white light there, growing bigger until it surrounds you. 
Imagine it turning reflective blue. 

From now on, imagine it expanding with your breath when you need to use it or shrinking back inside when youre done. 

Use your intuition and hands to feel where the problem is, what it is and ask questions. 

Put up your shield
Put on your imaginary gloves
Rub your hands together
Hold your hands over the area
Send loving energy
Repeat 3,4,5 until you feel done. 
Take off your gloves
Shake your hands and wash them
Take down your shield

Sync your breathing with theirs and pat them if possible
Imagine sending love from your heart to theirs connecting
Ask permission and stay aware for a sign
Think your conversation and stay aware for replies etc
Thank them

Thursday, 6 August 2015

Animal Communication

Today i tried out animal communication. I patted cloe while thinking things directed at her. I asked her to give me a sign if she could hear me and she shook her head. I asked for a confirmation sign of head shaking but she licked my hand. I asked for another sign but got nothing. I guess maybe she was over it by then.

Then i started reading about animal communication, out in the sunshine. I asked sam to give me a sign if she could hear me but she didnt seem to do anything. I asked again and she changed position. So im not sure about that one but she was sleeping.

Then i looked at a photo of toby and asked if her spirit could hear me. I got an itchy ear. I started to get frustrated and feel like i sucked at this but now i review the responses i got, i guess i did ok really.

Ive decided that i really really want to learn to communicate and heal nature and animals, intuitively. There was even a part in the book about singing to nature to make it happy, which id love to do.

There is alot of info in the books ive read about how to do intuitive communication but i think since its meant to be a natural but forgotten sense, that id like to just go with it in my own natural way. I just need to practise the basic steps for firing up my intuition. I think i can figure the rest out naturally as i go.

I just saw a crow fly over as i lay down on the trampoline wondering about it all. Crow means intuition and authentic self emerging. Yay!


I emailed the creator of the nature process about my first NP attempt, as she actually suggested doing so, in her book. I was nervouscited (nervous and excited, as created by pinkie pie, one of the my little ponies, lol,) to receive a reply two days later.

Hey Amy,

Thank you so much for emailing me to share your first Nature Process experience!  I loved reading about it.

You did awesome.  Don't worry about whether you did the release part good enough.  You did it perfectly.  Nature supports you through this, which means you can't mess it up.  

Nature will also never give you anything more than you can handle.  You'll become more comfortable with the release the more you practise and the more comfortable you are the stronger the releases may become.

You're a natural at this!

Please let me know if there's anything else I can do to help,

Tabitha :)